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A Holy Month

2010-08-27T03:59:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum earthlings...

it's been awhile i've hibernated this blog,and today as in the mid of Ramadhan,alhamdulillah,i am finally inspired to update,mudah2an blog post ani membawa kesedaran kepada kamu semua. Before that i would like to ask you the following questions

Have you ever thought of how lucky you are of being a muslim?

Have you ever thought of what the converts had to go through just to find hidayah from Allah?

Have you not thought of the moments where you forget about Rasulullah Salallahu Alaihi' Wassalam and not answer the salawat everytime you hear someone say it?

Have you no clue what our belove prophet Muhammad Salallahu Alaihi Wassalam did for the sake of our ease and comfort in life an the afterlife?

well know this fellow readers,i have been blinded by the world for a huge portion of my life and only in the recent years i have been on pursuit of doing my five times per day prayer,not perfect but still im trying.

slowly before we know it,Ramadhan will go away,and we dont even know if we might see syawal in time. Will we ever see Ramadhan in the following year?MasyaAllah how life that we have now is so filled with happiness comfort and ease,Ramadhan comes once in a year,semua ibadat dibalas pahala berlipat2 ganda,kenapa ketani masih duduk2 inda cuba meraihnya?

i spent my time roaming around on youtube then i stumbled upon a video taken from a Khutbah Juma'at in Malaysia. Subhanallah,my tears flow like the river listening to the ustaz's speech. I felt my flaws,and i know how little i am in this world,how my life has been wasted too much on maksiat. How will we ever be in the league with Muhammad? we're normal human beings,the temptation especially in the current era is too much for us to neglect. But we must not forget,who lent us the pleasures of the world?

and we must not forget,that everything in this world is NOTHING compared to whats on the other side.

for that,i posted up these videos on my blog,mudah2an bulan suci ani dapat memberi keinsafan kepada ktani semua Amin Amin Ya Rabbal Al-amin!!

Kasih Mesera

2010-01-21T23:22:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum

its been awhile i know.....how are you doing earthlings?:D

barang ani batah sudah be draft,daripada ku biarkan buntu baik tah ku publish saja...

they say actions speak louder than words....well in this cases there's no need of shouting...okay before you go on reading this post,this post is not meant to offend anyone and i am not regarding this post to any of the relatonships i endured thus if you are offended,kau poklen...

kata urang lah..bukan aku.....

but when a guy talks about their girlfriends nicely most of the time is just because they're held back from what they really wanna say or there's just nothing bad to say about them.

usually la......we choose who we wanna be based on their looks and character and all that shit,but see what i have encountered is that i look how things shape up and how conversations lead to care and care leads to love.

but yet again everything's empty with just dull conversations such as...

"bhapa bby tu/vHafa tOhz aHHAAAaakkkzzzzzzzz...."

"makan bby sudah?"

" ily"

"imy"

"tahi"

"mwahzzz"

"baie"

well just suggestive guesses her i know most of you peeps do that with ur ladies eh eh?*kirai2*well relationship(t)s like these are stiff....

i personally disagree with the idea of utilizing 'you' 'me' as means of regarding each other.apart from my cautious utilisation of grammars,another reason why i disagree with this is that...it annoys people around you,dont you think?well thats just my personal point of view,listen dont listen,i dont care.

i am not a professional relationship councellor of any sort,but through observations,i guess i've seen substantial issues to bring about in this post.i admit one thing,relationships ani perosak akhlak....a friend once told me,if you're doing your prayers,your heart will somehow be bothered with the thoughts of the ones you love. the term 'zina hati' i believe is coined to subject this matter. the main reason is that we are human with limited capabilities and such. some people can resist temptation,some cannot or they just dont try that hard...

relationships are meant to cure the illness of the lonely heart,apart from that its meant to lead the lost ones back on track,to be more faithful by constant reminders,as well as influencing among each other to pursue Allah because our lives are meant for one thing,to be his humble servants. Sometimes when we love a person too much,it'll change our intention of living,true?

what i meant was you say things such as 'i'd die for you' 'i live only because of you' and all that sweet talk bull...but would you really?sincere love is shone with faith,and with only both being faithful to Allah's commands will save them from being influenced into a distorted wraith.everyday the temptations just gets bigger and bigger,and thats what we all face. the nature of human beings are just meant to be that way,in adaption to the darwin theory "survival of the fittest" which is also applicable in this matter.

therefore://dua tiga kucing belari

BISAI KAH INDA

2010-01-21T23:07:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum,

so what i wanna talk about in this post is the mindset of the people nowadays,bisai kah inda?

not so long ago,we were captive aong these poklen sensations,uuu~~but realisation will overtime happen as more and more so called "civilised" people start to poke around really deep into their criticisms and sarcastic jokes about poklens and all that. to think about it,most features you see in the present world is not so original if that is the case here.

for 2010,i wonder whats gonna come up,for the past years we have endured the presence of shufflers,emos,bboys,etc....well initially,these people were called innovators,screw the spelling for that,overtime...haters will emerge and each groups will become more bold and more challenged by these haters....thus the rebellion of the sultan perak....erm...better stop before i go too far.

so what's the motive of my post?its actually a question,whats gonna come about for 2010?what new trends will emerge among the sub-cultures which already exist?mohawks?the rebirth of the mullets?gotta be something.

im gonna continue on catching up with the posts if possible each week and i will soon touch on things i never touch before.....*that sounded wrong*

anyways,sure will update more since this blog is cohabited by spiders and the mass reincarnation occuring with spider webs here and there,im getting dusty y'know~

fiez signing off...

//therefore;mermaids are actually transvestites....

FEWEEEEEE

2010-01-17T09:52:00.000-08:00

no idea for the title. ASSALAMUALAIKUM CHILDREN!

i know ur probably wondering....buntu sudah ni blog si apis ah inda lagi pandai be update......well......i deliberately did that because only then u will stop visiting and i have more space to rant and spill about so wheeee >.<" erm......but no,thanks for visiting you guys,really appreciate it :) if you guys are familiar with the forum im involved in which is the misfits forums,you'll be aware that there's some sort of cardistry/magic online video competition goin on.

i havent cam up with new shits lately,too lazy to record...but ajek helped me filmed a tutorial of one of my moves on the vid below

thanks buddy!!for all of those who doesnt know who ajek is,he is one of Brunei's big potential in the cardistry and magic scene....view his stuffs here

i'm putting some points in consideration to blog about,but for now i'll update you guys teensy weensy bits....i assure you,something big is about to rock the cardistry world with the non-stop bruneian efforts so wish "us" the very best.till then :)

//therefore;pigs bark

Syawal

2009-09-21T08:29:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum

its the end of Ramadhan,nda payah kamu kurik idung tapuk2 lagi,kalau gatal kan bekukut atu garu tia puas2,makan tah kamu sampai bunal. Happy Eid Mubarak Everyone!

in life,we always sinned to others,friends, parents, siblings and if it werent for this day,people will sorta hesitate to beg for forgiveness to others. It doesnt have to be just during the month of syawal, it could be anytime. Before we can ask someone else to forgive us,we must forgive ourselves. So why not? start off by praying to Allah everynight and forgiving others, in return it will make it easier for them to forgive us. So if you think that you broke someone's heart, talked bad things about them or even picked ur nose & wipe the gold on their favourite shirt,whatever it is, ask for their forgiveness.

this Syawal brought so many things to me. Lotsa things that i'm grateful of which i can only return a minor favour back to the almighty. Selepas Ramadhan, gerenti ktane kan makan this & that iblis bkeliaran meningkatkan hawa nafsu segala keimanan berubah.

to acquire something is wonderful, to maintain what we've acquired is something challenging & wonderful. What im talking about is sacrificing something for the better. its how ur willing to leave the bad things aside & build up the good ones. Not necessarily we have to be radical & alim to be committed to our responsibilities. Im not trying to be a mr know at all but,listen to people's justifications on why they dont carry out their responsibilities as muslims/muslimahs.

Dear brothers & sisters,we dont live forever. Selagi ktani terdaya atu buat tia suruhan Allah atu, jangan di anggap barat barang atu sedangkan ketani balum lagi lakukan. Solat 5 waktu isnt exhausting compared to extreme sports,staying up all night main band arah urang kawin or school? Im saying this because we all have the potential to change for the better. so tell ourselves kalau ketani nda pernah beriman kepada tuhan, minta tah hati ktani kana bersihkan, kerana Alla h itu maha pemurah. Kalau ketani ditimpa masalah ketani memohon arahnya bukan mengharapkan pertolongan manusia saja kerana sesungguhnya tenaga manusia ani datangnya dari Allah jua. Ever wondered why we sometimes experience misfortune?Why Allah wasnt there to help us when we were in mischief?

ask yourself this.

Did you seek out for Allah?

baik tah ktani berbuat sesuatu kebaikan atu daripada nda berbuat langsung coz we dont know when are we gonna die. Maut adalah sesuatu yang paling dekat dengan ktani. I believe that everyone can achieve this feeling, but we all have to start at some point slowly sentiasa berdoa Allah tetapkan iman ktani & semua orang yang ktani sayangi. Aku nada ilmu,aku nada kuasa,hanya secebis peringatan kepada semua yang ktani semua di ciptakan untuk satu tujuan.

Taat kepada Allah Ta'ala

"the lamps are all different but the light is the same"

//therefore;givethanks

Buntu Bro...

2009-09-06T12:52:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum bros & sis. Its a random hour after sahur + substantial amount of caffeine + joblessness = perfect conditions to blog.

daripada ku biarkan buntu blog ani kan...nda ja? jaa....

so whatsup?emptiness yo,feeling content with guilt and so much more than a day i see everyday...thats what i miss. The great overwhelming feeling of something that pushes me through each day reminding myself that its my last day on earth as we all shal depart sooner than we know. I'm talkng about Iman ladies & gents. Im on a deprivation on that,supposedly Ramadhan brings up a better time for me to focus on my duties. Its gonna come back to me soon i suppose. Yeah it will....it must.

i seldom talk about my daily routines and such nonsense that i am aware that you guys wouldn't wanna waste your time reading anyways..but let me tell you what happened to me anyways with the exams over and i just have so much time to tell you things you dont need to know about me,isn't that fun?:D yayy!

big exam's coming soon,my AS results were kinda degrading,but it helped me somewhat in terms of encouragement and motivation. I dunno what happened back there during June,i must suck alot. Like i did on the history exam, a very good composition about the events that never occured :D and i wish that would entertain the examiners. I mainly wasted the three hours talking about how Hang Tuah governed parts of Malaya along with Tom Hanks (picture below) in the Island where he starred in the movie "Cast Away" (yes that was in Malaya).

Rumors told that Awang Semaun (refer to picture above) used an magical oar to paddle his boat only twice to reach to the island (he used the motor the rest of the journey) to rescue Tom Hanks & Hang Tuah . While that's happening,Hang Tuah was meditating in a cave on the island to until his armpit hair grew much2 longer than his body height that he had to hire a professional to clear it out. In the village which this ceremony was done,the villagers fought over the armpit hair which was said to be a cure to severe ilness such as baldness,stupidity,computer viruses and H1N1. Deaths and massive chaos stroke upon the village and yet until all the armpit hair has been burned causing massive toxic emmission in the atmosphere thus explaining the rising sea level in the current seas.

Tom Hanks after undergoing the meditation with Hang Tuah obtained immortality however his powers wont remain permanent if he fails to prevent his chest hair from being displayed to the open public. Sadly, in 1984 he appeared in a movie directed by Aziz M.Osman entitled "Tarzan : Not Enough Clothes In The Jungle" where he made an epic display of an enormous amount of grass like feature,to adapt to the tropical surroundings of the amazon apart from blending in with the apes. On the other side of a screen, the public were thoroughly disturbed by the indecent display of "manhood" causing massive internal bleedings among pregnant womans as well as internal puking (from their babies).

this has concerned the history of several countries which are linked through a careful yet radical analysis done by a Historian believed to be cohabiting in a dwellings among the Rambutans which the malays would prefer it as Tanjong. Thus concludes the presence of great explanation to which the whites were called as Mat Salleh by those who may concern.

the medicine to depression ahhh~~~~^_^"

//therefore; it didnt happen.

June

2009-06-18T00:37:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum,GREETINGS EARTHLINGS!!

to all those who have the fondness to waste their time reading this post comprised of dwellings of useless information about one's life,or some may find useful,

i thank you.

i'd like to mention this word so much as i like to mention the above word, "jazakallah" a word i discovered which occurs to be a meaningful word to be utilized to show grace to the almighty. Many things are unexplanable in life and people just keep on asking for the better however to put into consideration, some people endure much more worse cases than one encounters. But things became better if we expect it to be. Needless to say i have been unable to handle my attitude and behaviour lately and i know it happened for reasons that only him will know until the right time i will discover myself.

and ofcourse without all these things happening, what would life be?

an issue i would like to touch in this post is concerning the understanding of others in defining social life. unable to blog in noisy condition i had to shut off my stereo and put aside my ipod just to focus on this particular matter. Something had called me out to question the things that we do which we strongly shouldnt. it always starts with a small curiosity which grows overtime and once attempted,it becomes an addiction. take ciggarettes for instance*screw the spelling* it starts when one person tries and later it turns into an addiction. Same things occur with other so called "necessities". I have encountered many people justifying their needs towards these things and they try to relate it to positive views....most common phrase is that it turns out to be a trend or an escape from depression,as well as something unacceptable such as friend influence. As i mentioned to a friend of mine,the human life is active,as well as the thinking. apart from damaging themselves,they are acting towards destroying others subliminally.

what are we to do?

when we show them the truth where they justify the wrong?

when we ask them to stop and consider when they refuse?

when we shed our tears everynight thinking of the plague they invest in us and themselves?

for once i felt that everything is useless,every effort to make change,to make them realize how important it is to us as well as others around them but we have no wide knowledge,no strength and great power of influence that we possess,to understand that achieve something like this is impossible and considering that all hope is lost but yet i think again what a friend told me.

"Allah berbicara denganmu tentang sabar..."

all of the despair went into an end. At that time i realised the thing i pointed out earlier about picturing ourselves in worse positions where other people have only small things to handle while some carry the heaviest burden in their shoulder but they constantly preserve their patience because they're only doing it for the good of others and for Allah. Instantly everything became as light as air and the feeling is unexplanable unless felt....very overwhelming.

by those things said i command you people to resume to your lives and live life the fullest,safe and peacefully. Also thanks to the motivation that is sent to me by a particular person(yeah you know who you are) to clear things out of my chest for i have no strength to keep it to myself,kamu ambil lah apa2 yang patut,if you guys get offended by this deep apologies from me as i am speaking but the truth and no intention to offend anyone...kalau kamu marah poklen kamu tu...

urang cakap,bukan aku~~~

//therefore;indomie rocks!

Kelainan

2009-05-26T00:30:00.000-07:00

Para muslimin dan muslimat ditanah air,badak sumbu,ambuk,hayam sigun Haji Saban dan semua pembaca yang budiman,musim2 pacah miani ani yatah membarinya kan blogging inda betantu ni.....bisai pakah kana bacau2 jual minyak bahasa melayu ani. Sekali sekala nyamu...

upon punduk2 didalam library skulah antaie macam itik bepikir pasal isu2 semasa,tadi pagi sekulah macam biasa hari2 ada perkataan yang baru didangar dan cara penyampaian atu belainan supaya membentukkan pembaharuan nya urang macam menyabut "seratus" misti di alun lagi supaya bisai bunyinya,"seratuuuuu~~~SssssS" menyabut "gila" jadi 'Gleaaa~~"(nya si judin)walaupun nda menarik bagi sebilangan urang. Tapi setiap perkataan yang di ubah suai atu membawa makna yang mendalam (weseh~baru ya tunas bangsa kau atu pis!mcm forestpig)

kitani jangkau isu2 yang ada masane lah,sebagai contoh,isu "POKLEN". ucapan poklen ani makin meleluasa hingga timbul golongan2 yang anti kan urang2 yang di panggil poklen ani.....kitani selidiki apa makna poklen ani?Asal usul poklen ani kalau disabut lurus2 bunyinya "FOLK-LAND" ertinya tanah urang tua2. Siapakan banarnya yang menyebar kan perkataan ani?cubatah ketani pikirkan,macam mengucap urang2 tua kitani jua tu,yang mana usulnya nda jua lari dari kampung2 atu pakah ahhh....kebanyakan urang anti kan urang poklen ani pasal dianggap orang2 kampung yang begaya labih2 nda usai usulnya macam kucing kana randam acid,mbari watir luan2 lah usulnya,mbari kan menampiling gnya inda!!!!

urang pulang cakap tu,bukan aku~~~

tapi kalau dipikirkan,matlamat "labelling" ani nda jua membawa durang kemana2. Baik pulang disadarkan bisai ah?Batah2 ani urang nda beranti belawan bebahas pasal apa yang urang2 "poklen" ani buat arah masyarakat kitani,seperti mencemari jenama2 tertentu yang daulu pernah diminati ramai seperti "FUBU" "SPITFIRE" "NY" "WU-TANG" dan yang sewaktu dengannya (kesian bsdia ani nda lagi laku dBonai...)

tapiiii~~kan dipikirkan bisdurang ani mun nada di kawasan2 tertentu *tampat2 besarang bsdia mcm dyayasan masane migrate sudah ke mall* buring tia nada kan di kritik2 cara bsdia bepakaian apa atu,bukan nya ku becakap aku ani pandai berabis dalam fesyen,BUKAANN....
maksudku atu,kalau bepakaian ani...sadang2 saja~jangantah kan di ikut luan2 urang putih atu,sampai skirt sejangkal gnya dipakai mun rabah dtangah2 mall atu,rezeki eh hawwueyh~tarang mata tu yow o.O

mun bisai usul mata meliat bisdia ani behapa tah urang kan di ucap.

p.s:kritik ku lapas ani padas sikit,sori kalau terasa~ ^^,

kamu tau apa yang ku inda suka?cuba kamu bayangkan kamu be msn sama galpren kamu siuk2,ada taya jelama ani meng add "pwencezz-akukiutkematie@hotmail.com" *jgntah di add,nda ujud ni email ah* perangaiku kalau urang baru add aku,slalu ku tungu bsdia yang menagur,lapas dua tiga ari smenagur tia,tapi caranya menagur paling mahal buii~

"sHafa Ne?mNa dPat eMaiLqu?"

-kau jua add aku....

"aHakZ,yakaA?aDuy,LuPa qu VaAh~"

-ani siapa ah?

"cPa sJa Qo MaU xDxDxDxDxD~~~~kEkekKE~"

-haha!

*You are unable to send messages because you have blocked this person*

bukan nda membagi peluang kan berkenalan ah....ganya membari sanak bah mun udah bapuluh2 kali menahan rasa ani melayan kurapak bsdia ani nyamu...udahnya nicknya mbari sakit ati,ada tia lagi inda pehawar atu minta transfer kredit...falooooiiiii~ bukan boiprenmu ni kan ko kikis dang....

sebelum penyelewengan topic ini berleluasa,saya ingin mengucapkan selamat berjaya didalam kehidupan bagi orang2 yang balum sadar kan teori2 yang dibuat oleh urang muda2 masani tentang kehidupan kitani ani,dan semoga Allah menyadarkan kamu semua....

bah atu tah saja yo ah.....and no offence to anyone.:D kalau kamu marah poklen kamu tu~~

urang pulang cakap tu,bukan aku~~~

//therefore;bisuk2 ku menyambung lai...

Stereotypes.

2009-05-23T23:43:00.001-07:00

Something struck me to post something about this. I felt that people stereotyping, discrimating certain people with their irrelevent thoughts.I mean partially my life is consumed of certain concepts. An activity doesnt explain one's nature 100%

It occurs to me that often doing what we like seems negative to the public. For example flourishing in certain places,not all people but some will often think that i am involved in gambling activities and what not.Performing something astonishing doesnt mean that we are incorporated with devil relations...it occurs to us to be an artform and entertainment purposes lah people....

another thing which came to my mind is about the concept of black metal.

Black metal is a concept which occurs to people is the association with the devil. Different perspectives have different thinkings of how to define black metal.

Personally,one's passion for black metal music is generally what it is...the music. Aware that these kinds of music could mislead us to certain states of unawareness. Constantly there are always something subliminally delivered by these metal manipulators. It is not necessary for one to be swayed into consuming goat blood apart from frequent activities of disturbing rituals. Once we have our concept we strongly grasp onto it and never let go. What is the concept i am holding on to is Islam. We as human beings sometimes lack the knowledge about what we truly like or obsessed with. I enjoy listening to black metal music not because of the perverted views the apply in their songs,its about listening to what people think,and to some people,they appear no less than extremists towards certain races. Not long ago i realised that being committed to certain groups which are misleading thus causing to further spread of this plague is something that would sooner or later affect my values.

I hold on to my religion and for whatever cause i would not fall into the hypnotic messages that black metal portrays. None that i am claiming to be a religious zealot but i have certain degree of concepts which i could not erase forever til I die.the values within us human beings are often swayed into an abyss of unconsciousness,without the correct mindset we will be lost.

Its not what you learn, its how you take it.......

//therefore;lizards fell from the sky

Vague.

2009-05-23T22:28:00.000-07:00

the issue now is about the troubling questions of when. Things are going the way they're supposed to be but not quite how people wish it would.

what are we to do apart from living life in full throttle?I noticed that this year has come to a great shift in direction of my life. Now and then i question myself will it change again,will the current draft of life be replaced with new ones? When will be then?how is it going to turn out,again this is all vague,all up to the decision af the almighty.

it comes to my curiosity why some people cant find their true intentions thus ends up upon dwellings of vague intentions. Ordinarily,people tend to seek for assistance,as much as they possibly could,like myself,unable to stand alone without guidance,however i hold on to something right and stick to it,i have no hesitations to express what i feel if i was doing it for a good cause in other words, right things do not need justifications.

i listen to many suggestions that i should do this and that. Again its up to my decision wether to take it or not. But i constantly remind myself that everyone deserves an opportunity,no matter how slim the chances are or how thick it is. no matter how much misery the outcome will bring,it will eventually turn out to be a good deal of memory,we cant just stand here and think later about the "what ifs" because you and i know that we cant stand thinking the possibilities that will derive from our actions and thus for all we can do is live life....FULL THROTTLE!

//therefore;dua tiga kucing belusiii.......

Bullshit.

2009-05-07T03:28:00.000-07:00

Yes,loads full of crap again dear reader(s)(myself). To a more contemporary approach towards "BULLSHITTING" I had noticed that most writers manipulate their compilations of junk in an abyss of realm. Nonetheless i have seen certain jargons apart from the babbling and nonstop ranting about absolutely nothing just like what is presented by yours truly in this particular state of nonentity.

often times it may occur to you that you might find certain stuffs upon reading other people's blog which looks nothing more than of mere daily shits,but in fact the author treasures these in stature that one could not neglect.

things you may find are as such.

an isle to education.

the tools towards educational achievements.

card collections

a sculptor and his abstract figure.

men's obsession towards gilded beverages.

shades displayed by a 'Gollum' like figure.

and so many other shit that appeals exotic to the eyes of the hungry eyes,demanding excitement while some portrays nothing more than a pile of vain recollections. Or mere obsession towards exaggerating the simple things that people take for granted just to irritate the innocent.

//therefore; individu berinisiatif membangun bangsa yang proaktif dan berinovatif.

Indecent.

2009-05-01T03:58:00.001-07:00

Was waiting for the weekend hoping that something would come up and i would have more things to say about this dull life of mine. But yeah imma fill the spaces with loads more nonsense which to some of you may refer it as gibberish. Besides no one read this blog.....right?if you are you must be lifeless and in need of better things to do...

Usual things i do is browse around youtube to find those according to which i find interesting. Forgetting that Vimeo's doing me a favour for not being a bitch with the music copyright crap when i upload stuff there.....

i found this,uploaded by Dan and Dave.i've been fiddling with cards so much but ignored how they were made.

i could recall that these cards were cheap. The Suncruise Carta Mundis are available in Brunei and they have relatively good quality....

Past few weeks i meddled with some music compositions. Found useful scales and tips taught to me by some people. Lately i have time to deal with my music than i used to last year. Prolly coz im single now i have the time to satisfy the caressing needs of my stringy baby...

i am now blogging for the sake of it....i'll post summore nextime now shoo,skat!

//therefore; I like ---andseveralmoreletters.

Concept.

2009-04-23T18:50:00.000-07:00

What is white?
White is pure...
white is love,sympathy,light and fine.

what is black?
darkness,hatred,agony,anything but fine.

whatabout concepts?i shall carry on my further babbling to the next bit. Lately i've been thinking about what's happening within the politics of life. Its mainly consumed of mere contradictions and also a mixture of undetermined feelings. No mind is set for one particular intention. And so that's what makes us human.

Kata urang utak ani brubah2,which is to an extent true tapi pegangan atu inda hilang. There's always something that we hold on to despite the aggressive current we're in.

Conceptual ideas perpetuate stereotypes rather than reduce to what one's mind is fixed upon. Just like the colors that i mentioned,plainly deceiving. My journey's rather vague to be honest i hardly ever know what's ahead of me. Concepts are what kept me going all these years. I acquired the prerequisites which i can apply upon when necessary. Its just like any other ranting,talking of mine and expressing what i need to excrete out of this occupied mind. But sometimes its just hard, i suffer from inadequate courage to enunciate.

Hence all the troubles,the conditions required me to stay fit emotionwise and all i can do is remind myself how blessed we are nevertheless i thank the creator for giving me such strength.
And one thing shall be retained in oneself is concept.
And one thing shall be retained in oneself is originality.

white isnt always pure.
black isnt always filth.

Either.

2009-04-21T22:17:00.000-07:00

something's about to come up for sure but not gonna know how it's going to end up. Okayyy.....nevermind that.here are some pictures of recent activities together with those old ones.

went for rock climbing last friday.i didnt know WHY i did it perhaps the fact that i cant let someone down? anyways i was being a total "YES MAN" for doing something that i never thought of doing.

sal;"apa ada kan yo di atas atu?"

bald person in helmet;"antah,syurga pakahh...."

not a bad experience,thrilling and it put my years of "hand strength training" into practise.....

yeah the solid "BANGANG" expression smeered upon my face is priceless. Sally's head was too small similar to a primate which inhabitat the nearby flora and fauna as seen within the background of the picture above.

nevertheless thanks to Fidah for being available for the day eventho she wasnt shaped up to climb that day pasal kakinya tpleot. And to the guys sana who were nice and guided us with useful safety tips in particular the tough bald guy who works with my mom.

I visited waie's blog and stumbled upon this picture....

Wassissy,Qylperv,Waie a.k.a Cutest Boy in MD,Your's Truly,90% chubby chinese girl

the moments i reminisce upon where we chilled by the auditorium and being loud at all time is necessary,though some baskets were missing from the picture above Rafichipmunk & Azimah Princess Haboobs.I missed the crazy moments which was a true great 2008 for me if it werent for these guys,i wouldnt have such a great time,thanks to my MD FAMILY.

till then i'll shit some words when im constipated with thoughts.

//therefore: F=MA

upon another.

2009-04-16T16:57:00.001-07:00

"lets hope not" is what i've been thinking lately to my situation undergoing several circumstances where im involved in this and that. Did another guitar clinic on wednesday,the crowd was relatively more than there were in katok. Gobbled more talking than Mez did,sorry buddy.....but nevertheless was a good moment eventhough i didnt felt like playing that afternoon due to dehydration and sleep deprivation o.O

i had to get my statement from katok so i asked Mez if he wanted to give me a lift, we p'lanned on getting it during lunch time but he seemed busy so we decided to just do it on block 2. we had no class cause Mr.Peter Holland needed to deal with something. So Qilah,Fidah,Zimah was planning to tag along to join us to katok. Upon reaching the back exit, we stumbled with Mr.Peter Holland he was trying to get out as well but the gate was closed so we had to use the other exit and it was closed too and Mr.Holland said "just climb the gate it'll be fine" so we did.

that's a preview of Mez's ass upon conducting illegal activity after being convinced by Mr.Holland. we were supposed to fetch the girls but not long after that, one of the security guards saw us and shouted at us while we walk casually ignoring the fact that we just climbed the fence. we asked Mr.Holland to cover for us at the time being, he was like "just say you're with me" in my head at that time was he's got to be the coolest teacher but then the security came to us and we confront them. One of em was a bastard who kept his tone high with his bastardly angry face. well actually thats a natural way to talk to a criminal but nevertheless he's a bloody basket.

Mr.Holland had to drive us unwillingly to katok to get our story straight where we're going to Katok to get the exam statement which made him the most coolest teacher in my head. As we were in the car,Qilah called me and wondered what took us so long,i just said we were caught by security,i'll talk to you later. I could hear her loud laugh enjoying every bit of our mischief. But yeah, what is life without these little adventures?

// therefore; cats do swim.

Foot In Mouth

2009-04-14T00:54:00.000-07:00

a mouthful of feet emphasis to what's going on lately. life's on a fast pace as it always is,once a day a dose of up and down experienced,first it was all about flowers and sunshines next thing you know you're riding a roller coaster down to neraka jahanam baby~

and then you bathe in heaven's lake.....^^,

wtf am i talking about.so cut to the chase,last weekend spent the week as usuals,rotting in my parlour thinking of all the wonders that is earth. last week went to mez's place to fix what's not fixed prior the guitar clinic held the next day.

the guitar clinic for the presentation was to scaled out of 10 a 4.5 by myself.i find it.......less responsive than i think it should be. later went to sally's place to meet and find out that mythology does not exist.i met this guy who was too good to be described by words,he is soo good that what he played literally touched my heart and that's quite hard to accomplish.but he did it so calmly while i would like to pick up and instrument and beat him to death for being too awesome.but nevertheles,music has charm to sooth the savage beast.

ah well, i got new sounds in my modeler whee~ and yet another performance is yet to come.

// therefore; cupid's dead.

recollections.

2009-04-09T23:13:00.000-07:00

continuation to the previous pointless blabber. there are several things that happened in my life since the beginning of 2009. i'll try to recall some of the enjoyable bits,and i should start off with the beginning and finishing a particular video of mine which is a sequel to an early project namely Petals Of Pentagram which is a mixture of two particular elements of cardistry and dark environment and petals resemble the flourishing manner of card movement creating an effect of astonishment or should i say 'finger language' in a good way ofcourse.

if thats tempting for you here's the whole thing,watch it or not,its up to you :)

early february or was it later.........i did another video shoot for possibly a tv show called 'Adrenaline' but yet again the outcome of that project is still vague and i was called up by the man who's in charge said they saw my earlier vids and there's where i got working on my flourishing so i decided to call Nadzri, a friend of mine who was staying for a holiday from oz.

as we reached there,the guys were great and very professional,the set was up to standard which i heard it was used to shoot the episodes of a local tv show which was the 'Orange Room'. Two cameras were fixed and music were put on and i was asked to do some of the complex cuts i've stumbled upon,shaky nevertheless i was i able to pull some of them off, and by the way did i mention that the place was hot??my cards were warped maybe that explains my terrible performance......or i just plainly suck :)

i gotta thank Abang Aidee for suggesting me to those guys and for me that was a great opportunity in my card life.

recently joined the gulintangan club and funny thing i went in as one of the 'seniors' in the group which was ironic coz i didnt know how to play a single damn gulintangan instrument. So i just act casual and introduced myself as the second bassist. so full of shit. but atleast i had fun...

so far thats what i can remember and the statement 'ignore the rest' or 'fuck that' probably answers your question of how's my life been going so far.

// therefore; the jack of spade is gay

2009

2009-04-02T21:24:00.000-07:00

should start of by the event of the week which is absolutely dull. After the holidays which was spent like SHIT on rotting in my room,going here and there,but it wasnt that bad despite the fact that i had so many essays to complete. As the school reopens i hadnt finished even a tiny bit of work and Mr.Cynical is starting his labelling job pointing out the baldy sitting at the back of sociology class -_-"

we're resuming the play "a View From the Bridge" supposably premiered to the lower sixes this term. Nevertheless a great comeback from the nothingness.

//therefore;e=mc2